Okay, so time to come clean. ever since about seventh grade, i've been really into the gothic scene. secretly, it was a huge secret til now. it's always been my scene. so I used the acceptable to hide my image from what it really was. i'm into the big rock scene, it's my thing. no, that was a back up. sure, black metal, death metal, nu metal, that aligns with my scene, the messages can come across the scene, but nothing beats the dramatic, theatrical and tragic sound of gothic music. so there.
to be honest, people thought i wore eye liner forever and i don't, but. every now and then i straighten my eye lashes. i have quite long eye lashes. heh heh. so yes, there. now. for my past few weeks. the girl, ah yes, the girl. she's fallen in despair over something. i'm satisfied. end of story. i'm sure it was over the boy she liked. ah yes, sweet satisfaction. now hopefully she knows how it feels to be unwanted. and yet i'm sad to know that she is bothered by something.
on a lighter and more shocking note, a friend of mine that i've kept in touch with called me a hero, if there were better such words to promote confidence i would be pleased to know what they are. A hectic, hectic life lies ahead, but with such words i think i can face life it's doorstep on the corner of happiness and hell.
I write and compose in secret for now, i want to tweak everything, it's taken a lot of thought, but i've begun a novel with which the title remains on strict terms. so for now. anyone expecting something from me must wait patiently. when i'm done i will post a journal saying so, and if you would like a look then you'll have to ask